I’ll be ok I think..- idk..- Just feel grateful that I’m not alone..- I have friends who care about me and are there for me during this really hard time in my life, and I have two supportive and loving parents..-
And it’s slowly but surely starting to become easier to not check his profile on here and stuff to see if he reached out or to see how he’s doing..- That urge to look is slowly becoming easier to ignore..- Which is nice..- because I feel like every time I do I go back to square one..-
But I think I’ll be ok..- Eventually..- I can feel myself very slowly healing..- I’ve been engaging in a lot of healthy coping strategies for getting over this..- And my best friend has been so helpful too..- Same with my parents..-
I started going on night walks without my phone, listening to music, writing down notes, playing video games that require a lot of focus so I could avoid my thoughts, I started drawing and animating again, I started rewatching childhood movies and shows for comfort and nostalgia, I started replaying old games I played in my childhood like Undertale, Detroit Become Human, and more, and lots of other stuff..-
I just felt like venting here, I’ll vent here again if I feel I need to..- pfft..-
Idk when I’ll be ok but I will..— Eventually..-
I’ll be ok I think..- idk..- Just feel grateful that I’m not alone..- I have friends who care about me and are there for me during this really hard time in my life, and I have two supportive and loving parents..-
And it’s slowly but surely starting to become easier to not check his profile on here and stuff to see if he reached out or to see how he’s doing..- That urge to look is slowly becoming easier to ignore..- Which is nice..- because I feel like every time I do I go back to square one..-
It’s a very slow healing process but I’m getting there..- very slowly but I’m getting there..-
Idk when I’ll be ok..- 4 months from now..-? 6 months..-? A year..-? More than that..-? I have no idea..-
I’m trying to engage in more hobbies and old stuff I used to love and enjoy..-
But I think I’ll be ok..- Eventually..- I can feel myself very slowly healing..- I’ve been engaging in a lot of healthy coping strategies for getting over this..- And my best friend has been so helpful too..- Same with my parents..-
I started going on night walks without my phone, listening to music, writing down notes, playing video games that require a lot of focus so I could avoid my thoughts, I started drawing and animating again, I started rewatching childhood movies and shows for comfort and nostalgia, I started replaying old games I played in my childhood like Undertale, Detroit Become Human, and more, and lots of other stuff..-
Pfft my heart hurts just typing this..- I wish he was here..- There were so many things I wanted to do with him..-
But that’s unrealistic..- Again..-