look man, idk if this is serious or if your just doing it for attention, but you're really contemplating self harm, then go see a therapist or talk to a friend! I've never had these thoughts so idk what's it's like but if your just gonna keep venting but not do anything about it, then you're really just setting yourself up for failure. I hope you get better, but jeez man, please get help.
*hugs and purrs to help* :(
I agree with the post below me:
Please get help
look man, idk if this is serious or if your just doing it for attention, but you're really contemplating self harm, then go see a therapist or talk to a friend! I've never had these thoughts so idk what's it's like but if your just gonna keep venting but not do anything about it, then you're really just setting yourself up for failure. I hope you get better, but jeez man, please get help.